Damn Spotting!

7 01 2008

Okay, so I am 8 dpo and the spotting has arrived. I know I said that even if I started spotting today I would feel like it was a small victory that I made it this long… and I do. But I’m also kind of pissed about it. Grrrr. Okay, that is all. 🙂


This Takes Forever Doesn’t It?

6 01 2008

Well, I contacted the fertility clinic about scheduling before they have that precious referral in their hands. Their answer… absolutely not. I tried. So onto the quest for the referral. I went to my new primary care doctor. He was great, very nice, and an all-around good guy. But he couldn’t give me the referral until I saw the gyno. Booo. So hopefully Monday I will make that appointment and maybe then I will get the referral. Wow, this is really dragging on. I hate insurance companies sometimes. So that is where I am now in the waiting game.

In other news, I am 7 dpo today. Although it seems like forever since we first started trying, and we have decided to pursue IF treatment, we haven’t completely given up on conceiving on our own. So I find myself here in the 2ww. I’m not terribly hopeful, but there is always that glimmer of hope. After all, my tests have come back fine, hubby’s tests have come back fine, and we did manage to get pregnant once. So who knows, it could happen. Not much to report on the 2ww other than the fact that I am 7 dpo and I have not spotted once since ovulation. I couldn’t be happier about that. Ever since our miscarriage nearly 7 months ago, I have spotted every cycle (with the exception of Clomid cycles) from about 6 dpo on. So just making it to 7 dpo is exciting for me. It gives me hope that my body is finally getting back on track after the miscarriage. Even if I start spotting tomorrow it will feel like a victory.

Insurance Issues: Fixed

31 12 2007

So I got my medical group changed… again. Turns out that my work has changed my insurance as of the first of January, so the medical group I had chosen was no longer allowed. But I found a new one that my dream RE is a part of and I got switched just in time. If I would have called tomorrow it would have meant another 4 weeks of waiting. So I have talked to the fertility clinic and discussed our next step. On Wednesday I will make an appointment with my new primary doctor, I will then hopefully get a referral from him, then 7-10 days after that the clinic will have the approved referral, and then I can schedule my appointment with them. The appointments at the fertility clinic are about 4 weeks out at this point, so with the waiting for a referral and the waiting for an appointment, we might not see them until March! I don’t like the sound of that at all, but it is what it is. After that comes some more tests, and then treatment. Feels like it is going to be forever until we get going on treatment. But at least we are one tiny step closer to our consultation and, ultimately, treatment. I have to keep telling myself that.

I’m not entirely sure what kind of treatment we are going for. Hubby’s results have come back fine, all my preliminary tests have come back fine, and we did manage to get pregnant once, so I’m not sure what is wrong with us. Hubby, like lots of guys, wants results. He is hesitant to go with IUI when there is another treatment out there with better odds. So I know hubby is definitely leaning towards IVF. And I’m with him on that. I have a feeling the RE will agree. The clinic we are going to is very aggressive; they even make sure to tell you that when you call about making an appointment. So I’m thinking they will recommend IVF as well.

So begins the waiting. Luckily there are a bunch of little steps along the way to keep me occupied. Fingers crossed that we get in to the RE soon!

I’m a Dumb Dumb Head

21 12 2007

I don’t know when exactly I got the idea that this dream RE was in my medical group, but apparently I was oh so very wrong. Today I managed to get my gyno’s office to refer me to the clinic I wanted (the aforementioned “dream RE”) instead of the one they were going to refer me to. But after checking again, I realized that my dream RE was in a completely different medical group than me. Oops. I’m sure that is a fact that will dawn on my gyno’s office soon enough. And that is probably why my gyno wanted to refer me to the other clinic to begin with. So, not to be outdone, I said screw that and changed my medical group. Oh yes I did. Might sound a little drastic, but I wish you could see the stats. The clinic I was originally going to be referred to had an IVF success rate of about 30% for women my age, while my dream RE has a success rate of over 50% for women my age. So yeah, if we end up plunking down 10K for all this stuff, I’m damn sure going with the clinic with the best stats. And they also come very highly recommended by a couple people I know. If nothing else, they are much friendlier than the clinic I was going to be going to. And friendly is important when someone is going to be poking and prodding, like an RE.

So time will tell if my scheming worked out. It is touchy because my referral is coming from my gyno (who is in my current medical group) to my dream RE (who is the medical group I will officially be in as of January 1st). Confusing enough? I think so. I hate insurance sometimes. So wish me luck and may the fertility clinic fairies smile upon me… or some thing along those lines. 😀

Referral in the Works

21 12 2007

I will hopefully have another update with the rest of hubby’s SA results this afternoon. Fingers crossed. In other news however, my doctor is putting through a referral to a fertility clinic for us. We are just waiting to see if my insurance goes along with it. He didn’t refer me to the clinic I was hoping for and, being the pansy that I am, I didn’t push the issue. Why am I so bad with confrontation? Anyways, I just looked up the clinic online and their stats are less than impressive, and the doctors have less than stellar ratings on those websites where patients review doctors. So all in all I’m not thrilled with my doctor’s choice. I think I might go to the clinic I chose originally despite who my gyno referred me to. My insurance is an HMO, but it has an option where you can refer yourself to a apecialist if you are willing to pay a higher co-pay. Which doesn’t really matter anyways, because they don’t do the co-pay thing with infertility. We pay 50% of everything infertility related, except for IVF, GIFT, etc. which they don’t cover at all. So I think I will call my insurance and see if I can just go to where I want to go instead. If I’m going to pay huge amounts of money to some doctor, I’m going to go with the best for my money.

Some Sad News, Some Good News, And Some Unanswered Questions

20 12 2007

I don’t even know where to start. I guess the bad news. I found out today that my dear friend just had a miscarriage. I feel horrible for her. We had a long talk and I was there for her as best as I could be. We’ve been pretty secret about our fertility issues, so no one really knows that we had a miscarriage, including her. So I decided to tell her about our miscarriage. We were able to mourn together. She said that in some weird way she was relieved when I told her, and I completely understand. I felt the same way when she told me. It isn’t that we are happy about what has happened to us, but there is comfort in knowing that someone else knows what you are going through without even having to say a word. I just feel really sad right now. I’m sad for her and I’m also reminded of what happened to us. It definitely brings up all those emotions that I have tried not to deal with. So I know you don’t know her, but keep her in your thoughts if you can.

I don’t want to dwell on that too much. Goodness knows I will be dwelling on it for a long time. So I will move on to the test results. Hubby’s SA results are in. His sperm count is 79! Normal is over 20, so this is a very good number. His motility is on the lower end of normal at 51%, but with 79 for a sperm count I don’t think that is much to worry about. His pH is a little high at 8.5, so I think we might go to a urologist and have that checked out. It might be a sign of infection. The main concern with high pH is that it can kill sperm, but he doesn’t seem to have that problem, so I’m not too concerned. So with the results that we have things are looking good. I’m shocked all in all because I was sure the count would be low. Yay for a promising result. About a month and a half ago we started hubby on a whole list of pills that are supposed to help with sperm count and quality, so maybe it is working. I know they usually say it takes 3 months, but I’m being hopeful. Afterall, if hubby’s count was bad before and just improved because of these pills, then maybe we will have luck soon. A girl can dream, right?

Now for the unanswered questions. The SA results are not yet complete. If you have gone through this before you might notice that I left out morphology. Some would argue that is the most important number of all. Well it turns out they didn’t write down how long we had abstained for and apparently they need that info to finish the morphology calculation. So we called them today with that number and hopefully we will have the morphology results in the near future. At least that is what the girl at the lab said. Hopefully she is right because I REALLY want to know the morphology results.

So that is that. I’m going to go take a nice, warm shower and try to think good thoughts. Hope everyone has a good night!

Testing Complete

19 12 2007

bad-brains.jpg    Just a quick update to say that the testing went well. No major problems. I’m sure it was beyond awkward for hubby, but he was quite the trooper about it. And in celebration we blasted Bad Brains on the stereo the whole way home. Good times. Fingers crossed that we get the results tomorrow!