Ah… The Weekend

Well, no IF news, and no pics of yummy food either. Although this weekend has been fun and relaxing, we did manage to lose the charger for our camera and our water heater broke. Oh the fun. We baked some delicious pumpkin pies and some pumpkin bread too, but unfortunately I have no pictures because our camera is dead, and of course you already know about the charger. But suffice to say they are yummy. You will have to take my word for it. As for the water heater, we are hoping it will get repaired tomorrow. Fingers crossed!

22 Months In: What We Know and Where We Are Going

What we know so far: an ultrasound shows that my uterus is normal, my hormone levels are fine, I ovulate on my own, and 4 rounds of Clomid did nothing for us. And after our miscarriage (~ 5 weeks) after 15 months of trying to conceive, we now know that we can theoretically get pregnant.

Where we are going: Next step is a semen analysis for hubby. If that comes back bad, then we will look into IUI or IVF. If it comes back fine, then we might need to take another look at my fertility. Either way, I’m hoping to move from our OB/Gyn to a fertility specialist. I have one in mind and I look at their website far too much just thinking about taking that next step. The scary part is the money. We have decided to go ahead with treatment if that is what we need, but it is pretty intimidating to look at the cost of some of these procedures and say… “yeah, sure, let’s do that.”

But I’m getting ahead of myself here. We still have to have that darn SA done. I could say that hubby has been dragging his feet about it, but honestly I have too. I want to badly to know what is wrong, but at the same time I hate to know the truth. The tentative plan is for hubby to get the SA done this week. So assuming that we get our ass in gear, I will have some results to report by next week.

Well enough about IF for now. I think I will try to put up a non-IF post soon with some vegan baked goods. Because they are pretty, and it gives me a good excuse to make and eat some yummy sweets. 😉

Writting it All Down

I suppose I always put off blogging because I hoped that this would all be over soon. I kept telling myself “next month will be our lucky month.” Surely I’m not the only one who had that delusion. Well, it hasn’t happened yet and there are few things lonelier than infertility, so here I am finally baring my soul. It is terrifying to be facing IUI/IVF, but it is worse to sit and let time pass us by. I remember back when we first decided to start trying I thought I would never try IUI or IVF. That seemed so extreme to me. It is funny how almost 2 years later I am looking at infertility clinics for just that. I’m actually excited about the prospects of finally doing something about our infertility. Bring on the dildo ultrasound, the tests, the injections, all of it. I’m ready for it. Now it is just a matter of getting the ball rolling, which has been the hardest part. Although IUI/IVF brings me a lot of hope, it also means giving up hope of conceiving on our own. It means conceding defeat and confronting the fact that we are in fact infertile. That is a lot to swallow and some days it is easier to just ignore it. Here’s hoping that this blog encourages me to get the testing and referrals so we can move forward!